Journal ︎ WIP ︎ Process




Selfie Mode

1.14.2022


    Testing new light set ups and getting into the groove of editing again, I've been using myself as the model. Always strange to see yourself when you constantly question how you look. Trying to halt the constant questioning, will let you know how that goes…¯_(ツ)_/¯



New Year New Material

1.1.2022

   I’m spending the first few days of the new year making hi-res scans of a bunch of vintage magazines I purchased while in San Francisco in November. Auto Erotica SF has been my personal go to place to purchase vintage smut for new work and pleasure. This haul I did was super quick as it was right before I had to catch a flight back to NY. I had maybe like 25 minutes to rummage through the crates and stuck with the usual makers, HONCHO, MANDATE AND INCHES. All but one of the magazines are from the late 70’s and 80’s and the one from 1993. Hope to get them all scanned and cataloged by mid month and start crafting new pieces by the end of January.

P.S While researching online for writers and artists featured in these editorials I came across another person archiving out of print erotica and will be reaching out so we can share our findings. Might be able to get issues I've had my eye on for a while now that are not physically available anymore.  Wish me luck!





Florida 

12.18.2021

    With rising covid cases in NYC and coming out of a two week bedridden cold/ ear infection, I really wanted to feel the warmth of the sun on my skin. I used the last of my previous jobs flyer miles that I had accrued from all the traveling pre covid and said fuck it let’s go to Florida.  The pandemic to me has been a borrowed vacation and I’m slowly coming up on the need to get back to work. This short trip carries the full weight of my sorrow and trauma from employers exploiting my work ethic and hopefully I drowned those feelings in the Florida springs. After not living here for over 10 years it all felt so new. Leaving in 2011 was a very hard thing to do and I still glitch every once in a  in a while.

Here’s to building new memories here in the future…







Gorgeous Gorgeous Girls Love Soup

12.16.2021



The day after landing back in NY I caught a cold and was in bed for almost 10 days. Lately if it's not physical pain it's an emotional one. I’ve been writing a lot and applying to many places for the upcoming year, but have either received a lot of rejections or heard nothing back.Trying to get myself out of this by doing what I know best, taking pictures. I had sourced this very long piece of unbleached muslin from Materials For The Arts a few weeks ago and decided to make a backdrop. This was really an exercise to build my confidence in setting up a light and equipment as I am going to heavily rely on my photographic skills as an income generator in 2022. The Pandemic really fules the imposter syndrome when all you have is time with your own thoughts and Great Lakes harrassing you every day with endless emails.

The vest I'm wearing is something I created myself. In the style of Margiela, I upcycled an old tweed blazer, made it into a vest and added  sleeves off a vintage knit sweater as hand warmers. An outerwear piece for climate change? This session really lifted my spirits and I hope I can start to photograph as soon as the new year begins.

“Soup girls are the most popular girls in the chicken coop.”




CALIFORNIA

12.1.2021

Spent some time in California after not traveling for a year. Mostly a family trip as I had not seen my immediate family for the year and my extended family in almost a decade. Flew to Los Angeles and met my parents there, where we held a gathering for my late grandmother after one year of her passing. I still have not fully processed that she’s gone and don’t think I'll ever process the fact that I saw her funeral service via a youtube live. For the gathering, a mass was held on her grave site and while only a few members were in attendance due to timing, it brought my understanding of our ancestral ties to new heights. Being back in Echo Park, after not living there since 2008, and not visiting for work was very bittersweet. The neighborhood has been changing since before I was born but to hear my family discuss not being able to navigate this new gentrified version of their home was heartbreaking. Mourning the loss of  elders and the loss of place in the land, again feels heavy on a heart that’s already on the ground.

After a few days in Los Angeles, we journeyed to the deserts of Palmdale to visit my uncle and to pick up a horse that would travel back up north. After being in my tiny apartment in NY for almost two years, the vast valleys full of Yucca trees filled me with joy. Knowing that centuries ago my ancestors walked these lands makes me dizzy.

The third part of my travels brought me back up north to the central valley where my parents have made a home since the early 2000’s and where they now feel more at home than anywhere. While I grew up here as a teenager, it wasn't as impactful as it was to them or my younger siblings. For me, there is very little opportunity and stimulation but while being there I could see myself back sooner than I would like to. Something about being right at the edge of the lush mountains of the California/ Nevada sierras to live out my days seems like a good idea even at this young of an age. Will it happen? Who knows, but for that moment I could live in that fantasy. California, I’ll see you soon…






Fall 2021

11.16.2021





It definitely feels like fall...with temperatures dropping to the 40’s and the strong north winds. I’m feeling like this is a very important time in my life where everyday we get closer to coming out of this pandemic but still very much present. Some friends from California came to visit me for the weekend and in that time I was able to see the city through their eyes and recenter my own feelings about my place right now. Being deprived of travel and social life and the long list of pandemic worries has had me very down lately. I keep going but seem to be in a loop. To curb the potential seasonal depression, I’m planning a small trip to see family in California, for the anniversary of my grandmother's passing  and to recharge my spirit with family stories and food. I am battling very dark times internally and hope that like the quick color change of the leaves I too can turn new ones soon.






An Artmaking Workshop Series & Music Showcase

The Salon presents The Bridge Graduation ‘21
10.15.2021


Sharing exciting news with you all that I am part of the #cityartistcorps!

I am looking forward to leading an Alternative Process workshop titled “Turmeric Anthotypes: Making Photos with Plants” for you at @somad.nyc on Saturday October 30th from 11am-7pm and be a part of New York City’s creative resurgence.

Thanks to @nyfacurrent @nyculture @madein_ny and @queenstheatre for the support!

https://www.eventbrite.com/e/bridge-program-graduation-21-tickets-190654581987

Turmeric Anthotypes: Making Photos With Plants 




Participants will be able to create alternative photographs and photo impressions using items that most people have at home.

We will extract pigment from turmeric and print images from your own personal collection or make impressions of leaves and plants of your choice.

************For those who sign up *********

🔘Send me your most favorite photo right now or from the past, and I will generate a film transparency to print on the day of the workshop!
Image Request Specs:
🔘8.5 x 11 or smaller in PNG or JPG and can be of any subject (portraits, landscapes, drawings, digital art, text )
🔘Email provided upon signing up.

Please join me and the rest of my cohort from the @the_salon_nyc for an all day event of workshops and performances to celebrate our work. Tickets for this FREE :) event can be found at @the_salon_nyc Linktree :)


The Salon is inviting you to:


The Bridge Graduation '21

Saturday, October 30, 11-7pm
@somad.nyc gallery.

The Bridge Graduation ‘21 is a celebration that platforms recent graduates of The Bridge Program and their original art making workshops. The public will experience BIPOC Teaching Artists who have learned to effectively communicate aspects of their practice to diverse audiences.

Come for a free art making workshop designed by local BIPOC Artists and stay for our music showcase.
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Melika Dave @MelikaDave
Intro to Experimental Self Portraiture

Andie M. Clarkson @AndieMClarkson
The Art of Alternative Processes: How emulation transfers transformed photography
Time:
1pm-2:15pm
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Jackie Torres @Jackienes
Trains of Thought: A Writer’s Workshop

Hector Gomez @HectorGomez
Turmeric Anthotypes: Making Photos with Plants
Time:
2:30pm - 3:30pm
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Ariel Mercado @SheSoPleasant
Language & Touch: Intro to Making Portraits like a Conceptual Artist
Time:
3:45pm-4:45pm
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@PookHustle - @Jokamundo - DJ @Jakariwing

Music Showcase
Time:
5pm-7pm
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Flyers by: @lazzles



Cyano-travels


8.1.2021

While working on Anthotypes, I also dusted off my Cyanotype chemistry for an exercise using images that my friend used with her cellphone while on a trip in Poland. The idea of someone using a digital mobile device and sending it through the internet waves for me to imprint on paper using an historical process makes me so excited. I’ve crowdsourced images like this before but usually portraits or selfies, never landscapes. Seeing nature so far away from me, especially during the pandemic really hits your soul. While doing these prints I also used some of the digital negatives from the Anthotype test to try out some portraits of myself mixed in with some leaves from the plant collection. 

#AlternativeProcess






Oh Y'all wanted A Physical Manifestation of A Glitch?


7.3.2021

It only took me two test tries with the new loom  to somehow interject photo weaving into it. This got me really excited and I think this is a step in the right direction. Dressing my loom has been challenging but every time I get better.





Also working out the sizings for the anthotypes I’ve been working on. Spent the weekend coating and drying some new types of papers. Coated a handmade paper I got from an on paper mill in Oakland back in 2013, some matte inkjet paper and some hot press watercolor paper. I’m just interested in the textures each paper will bring to the image even though I've already decided that I want to print the final portraits on Amate paper. I’ve just been waiting to be able to purchase them at the paper store near me as it is a specialty item and they are still not letting people in their showroom. Art making in a pandemic.


#AlternativeProcess


















1 and 3, 2 and 4 - Newbie On The 4 Shaft Loom


6.19.2021

    Recently I got a 4 shaft loom. and  after a few weeks of reading and watching videos I attempted to make something. All kinda loose but so far I’m excited to work with it. Think I’ll do a few more panels before using better fibers for new mixed media work. I'm thinking of either Solarfast or a Liquid light print on one side and the weaving pattern on the other to be hung in ceilings. I have a lot of practicing to do...





Alternative Process- Anthotypes

4.27.2021

    Covid-19 has halted so many things, one of those was my ability to find new subjects to photograph. Since lockdown started more than a year ago my inspiration has been suppressed by anxieties and traumas that come with living in a pandemic in a late stage capitalist country. I put the camera away as the state of my current life was known. During this time I spent most of my time working with found images to try and find a new path once and if we got out of this pandemic. Once news broke out that vaccines were approved and plans for implementation were underway, I started to think about what that future would look like and if  I was ready to reunite with my love of photography. I was somewhat  ready but wanted to keep the camera away just a little while longer. So I went back to photography's beginnings, chemical contact printing.  There are a handful of first accidents that gave birth to the photography we know now, Cyanotypes, Platinum, Carbon, Bichromate and others, but I wanted to take a resourceful and experimental approach to this new chapter of my photographic journey, Anthotypes were the answer.


    An Anthotype is an image that is made by the reaction of photosensitive plants onto a substrate after exposure to the UV rays of the sun. First person that presented her findings was Mary Sommerville, an astronomer and mathematician that had to allow Sir John Herschel to present the findings for her as the times didn’t favor women intellectuals. The process involved creating an emulsion from different plant flowers or berries, coating a paper with the emulsion and exposing an image or silhouette  in the sun over a period of several hours, sometimes days depending on the plant matter. While I had studied about this process in my early schooling I only printed using the Van Dyke Brown and Cyanotype processes as the exposure times were  a fraction of  what Anthotypes required. While sheltering in place, all you have is time. So I opened my old Alternative process journals and went on the google dot com, to refresh my thoughts on what was needed to make some Anthotype prints happen. Now, going into this I knew I wanted to use clippings from all my Barbaras( that’s what I call my plants) since they have been the protagonist in my life during lockdown  and being that it's a plant based photo process, they can fuel the cycle. After going back to my chicken scratch journals and a few blog posts later, I came across Anthotypes made with Turmeric. Simple, extract the color pigment from the turmeric using alcohol, coat the paper and after its dried expose it to the sun for a few hours. No fixing or curing is needed but borax can be used to further darken the pigment that's been burned by the uv rays. The prints are ephemeral and will fade over time, just like all of us.


Here are the first tests for this process.









New Work Developing & A Week Of New Sewing

4.25.2021

    A few weeks back I sourced a few childrens school and leisure books that I intended to use for as new weaving material. After doing some initial quilt-like pastings of different pages, I let them sit for a few days as I developed the urge and content to begin weaving. This past week, the urge came. I began to cut away strips and begin to weave. The BIG idea is to eventually have a considerable amount of these paper tapestries that I can cut and sculpt into three dimensional pinata like objects. As I was counting warps I thought  it may be easier to just stick to my traditional method of weaving paper with smaller sized papers and then collage the strips onto the three dimensional outline, similar to draping on a dress form. I still may revisit that if it becomes time consuming but for now I like the aspect of choosing the different pages to be bound together into one piece and then again bound two a different large tapestry of these stories and worksheets.





   
    In conjunction to this new development, I spent my breaks cutting new patterns and constructing new outfits for a summer that doesn't seem to want to get to New York. Using the large 6 yard fabric I made two tops; an outer jacket to wear over shirts, a blazer-like top and matching shorts to go with it. Hoping to take this outfit to a museum outing in early mid May. For now, I’ll continue to weave...









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3.9.2021
                    
    A quick video showing the process of my paper weavings. Usually first start with a word of a phrase and then translate that into binary code (text based ASCII or Unicode) to get the base code of    (1’s and 0’s). Once I have the code, I transfer those onto a spreadsheet in relation to the amount of strips im expected to have vertically and horizontally (warp & weft) and repeat the pattern until i’m done with the block. I tone the cells to visualize what the pattern will look like before choosing images for each bit. I like to also make a copy with digits removed. Using this guide I weave each row as I read the row in the spreadsheet. For this particular piece the code that was translated was my name.


                              

You can see a piece made with this pattern here ︎






Took a Break, Now I’m Back

3.8.2021 

I haven’t made an entry in a while as I’ve used social media to keep a record of what I’m doing. Lately though, I feel as though social media is altering my proces.
As makers, social media has been a great tool to reach greater audiences but at the cost of becoming a labor force for the platform's algorithms.

I have always embraced the internet and the power of social media and I’ve met a lot of my personal close friends over the years through the interwebz, but with more corporations using social media as a selling tool; I’ve become bombarded by advertisements in every corner of virtual space, too many to the point of shutting down creatively and emotionally. Now this doesn’t mean I’m rejecting social media, It means I’m transforming the way that I use it for my work and my personal life.

I hope to use this space to document and archive my art practice in a way that serves me and my work through an unfiltered lens and space where I have complete ownership. Social media will be a tool that directs to this space where people can see my work and process as a whole one that doesn't work on likes and reblogs.

Here I will post daily works in progress, current readings and events that take place within my practice.
 

Wish me luck!


Some of this past weeks footnotes.  

3d Printed some stands for my synthesizer and also tested out a quick color shift in the print for cool dual tone effect looks cool but can see the line of demarcation from the switch. Not too bad as that can be sanded down. 
 


Also 3d printed a 6 inch statue of Xochipilli but it failed as it was finishing the base. I didn't want to toss it out so I decided to make a little planter for a cutting. What better way to use the base of the statue of the prince of flowers than to hold a little flower. 

And over the weekend I was thrifting and scored 6 yards of digitally printed cotton fabric which I think i'm going to make into some clothes for summer. The pattern reminds me of 70’s paper marbling.









THE TELETHON FUNDRAISER:
Artist Showcase & Art Auction


Hi Everyone!

Excited to share that TheSalonNYC is hosting a Telethon December 20th and will  be hosting a collection of art from 50 artists and a few of my woven works will be available for purchase. The Telethon will be screening films, artist videos, comedy skits, experimental media, live performances and  poetry readings.Donation based tickets for the event start at $5. I hope you all can join in and support. Click on the image below to view the event details. 


CLICK HERE FOR DETAILS 
THE TELETHON FUNDRAISER:
Artist Showcase & Art Auction


About the Salon.
The Salon is an artist support group that is fundraising for start up costs to become a cooperative. By attending The Telethon you will help us provide artist support that looks like:
• Material Resources
• Workshops
• The Ability to Pay Artist Facilitators

Ways you can Help:
• Bid and Buy our Auction Artwork you are directly funding the BIPOC artists who donated their work to support us (artists have agreed to provide a percentage of sales).
• Watch Our Showcase (The Telethon) and tip artists whose work you enjoy its a direct way to support performers during Covid.
• Follow & Buy Tickets From The Telethon EventBrite by following us on EventBrite you can keep up to date on future programming.
• Share this Post, Tag us & Follow. Artists need an audience, interact with us! It lets us know if we’re doing a good job. We’d love some encouragement <3


Directly support The Salon. PayPal, Venmo, and Eventbrite tickets are in our linktree.

These artists believe in this project and we hope you will too





South Lake Tahoe


This past week I was in South Lake Tahoe for a week working with a client and I was just taken back by the beauty of it all.For most of my teenage life, I lived about 80 miles away and rarely visited, usually just in passing,maybe just for the weekend but staying for as long as I did really made me miss life out in the rural parts of California. One thing I could not get on board with was how slow everything is. Slow traffic, slow cell service and everyone's aloof attitude towards life. I think i'm still too much of a city dweller.

I used some of the images I took straight from my iphone through a digital weaving software I came across a few weeks back(more on that later as i'm trying to rebuild the code and make it better). Take a look....









Weaving
 

I haven't been very proactive making personal work lately, due to the fact that I’m doing more work for my company paid job. I’ve been traveling a lot too and it’s given me a lot to think about in that time. I also just moved into a new home and home studio and i’ve finally finished setting it all up.
Sitting down and getting back to it is hard, because for a while i’ve just been exercising  my weaving muscles and not really thinking about the meaning behind the subject matter- on a deeper level.
I’ve been working on a few new pieces, weaving found images from old text books and vintage Honcho magazine pages. I’m interested in this subject matter because of the unspoken underside of gay culture. The desire to need and want, fit,tall,masculine and white partners is destroying the community's ability to progress. I’m also interested in social media platforms censorship of queer content. Unless the content is watered down and palatable for a global “straight” audience, the platform will not push your content to your network. So, these exercises  are also being used to push and question the platforms censorship regulations.






Cappy



So have been experimenting with this app named CappyAR. Cappy, Allows you to create 3D models quickly with the iPhone X OR browse and view them in AR with other compatible devices.
Now my background is in traditional photography and  i'm still learning all about photogrammetry and computational photography. I’m interested in the ontology of photography and where photogrammetry fits in the narrative of the photographic image. I know that a camera can capture what we perceive as realistic, which is why I really enjoy scanning objects and either striping the texture maps of the objects i’m scanning or overlaying a mesh onto it. An added bonus that Cappy has is being able to incorporate your scans into augmented reality where you can see the object floating in a real life setting via your camera's image sensor. Im hoping that I can soon build a new operating system that will let me explore photo scanning as my current OS isn’t fully capable of modeling and rendering at a high volume rate.








                          


Intimate Aphorisims

May 23 ,2018

Pleased to announced that two woven pieces  from my Interwoven series will be exhibiting in an upcoming group show. Please join me June 1st for the opening reception.

INTIMATE APHORISMS: An Anthology of Queer Latinx Narratives. “Intimate Aphorisms" presents a journey into the lives of 15 artists and their uninhibited and instinctive expressions of individuality. The exhibition displays an intimate relationship between the artists and their subjects that ranges from identity, family, desire, displacement, faith, and body image. The artists execute their personal work with a distinctive and palpable approach by re-interpreting imagery and symbolisms drawn from (but not limited to) religious iconography, quilting techniques, self-portraiture, and poetry. "Personal Aphorisms" showcases artists' innate desire to reflect their own truth, on their own terms.Exhibition info: MCCLA Main Gallery second floor
Exhibit dates: June 1, 2018- June 30, 2018 Opening reception June 1, 2018. 6:30pm-9pm $5 admission fee







A New Moon


At 28 years old, I never really thought about the what my life would look like at this point. I had goals and ideas about what I wanted to achieve but never had a finite picture. At 28, i'm living in San Francisco, working both for at a 3d scanning photo studio and also attempting to build a career out of my art practice.A little bit about me:
I was born in Los Angeles California, in the Echo Park district to Mexican born parents. I was the first born to very young parents who really were not ready for me to be apart of their lives. To make due, my father made partners with his brother and together they started a clothing production manufacturing business. They specialized in RTW outerwear for department stores like montgomery wards,sears and several others. I grew up running around the factory as the sewing machines roared all day. An assembly line of workers each specializing in one part of a single garment. This had a huge impact on me and my current interest. Manufacturing was a family affair. My father and his brother had their factory, My godparents who resided in oakland also owned their own specializing in hotel amenities such as bathrobes and towels and my aunt also produced RTW. Textiles became very interesting to me. Each different factory containing different fabrics with distinct textures and prints, all ending up in our home at some point in time.
Years went my and our family grew, 3 more siblings came and unfortunately with the shift in manufacturing and outsourcing to cheaper countries my family's business was closed. At about 10 years old my godmother gave me a camera during a weekend visit. It was a green, Kodak Advantix with my first roll of 35mm film. I shot the whole roll during that weekend at their place in Oakland. That was the first time I experienced taking pictures and where I believe my love of photography began. When we came back home, I wanted to continue taking pictures and I found the family polaroid camera could do that without having to wait for my film to be developed. I found myself demanding I take the family pictures and never let anyone else use it really. I still own that camera.
In 2002 my family relocated me and my 3 siblings the city of Riverbank,a rural part of central california. There I was, an angsty teen who didn't really understand why we made the move from the big city of angels to the city of no action. I suppressed  a lot of my emotions and interest then because I didn't feel like myself anymore but does anyone at that age? Some years passed, I grew into my new environment, Came Out to my friends in High School, Came out to my parents, graduated High School and ventured off on my own. I called a few places home to finally settle in San Francisco to pursue a college education and where i've been residing for almost a decade.
I've begun this journal to try and attempt to bring my analog documentation process into virtual space. Journaling is where my work begins as a sketch or series of coded words and phrases. Once these ideas are put together in one place, I can begin to hone in on a topic,research it, source ideas and materials to create. In short that's how I work
I also want to create a better structure around all of the things that involve my creative and interdisciplinary practice. My work mainly deals with identity and the various materials I choose to work with all help me convey those thoughts. I'm an admire of history and I see this a a way to preserve my ideas and feelings in real time. Will anyone care? Who knows but i'm willing to put myself out here in hopes that someone will feel the same way and help them on their own path.